Friday, March 4, 2011

I wish I was normul

My lovely bloggy friend, Beki, does a carnival every Friday called "Fingerprint Friday" for people to share where they see God's fingerprints in their lives. Do you have anything to share? Why not link up over at her blog?

It's been a rough couple of weeks around here. My daughter's diabetes has been acting up and it's been putting us through the ringer. There have been a lot of nights with very little sleep and my daughter feeling really yucky while I did everything I could to try to keep her from having to go to the emergency room. Not fun. Not fun at all.

In our house, we have a two-story entryway and my daughter's bedroom door is right next to the railing upstairs. My daughter has figured out how to use this to her advantage. When she's been sent to her room, she likes to write notes then throw them over the railing for me to find on the ground. Lovely, caring notes. Yeah. (See here, here and here.) Then the other day, I found this one...


That one broke my heart.

It was time to have a talk.

She snuggled into my lap and I asked her about the note. She told me that she hated having diabetes and she wished she could be like "normul" people. I told her that I hated that she got stuck with diabetes, too, but there really isn't anyone who's normal. God made each and every one of us to be different and unique. We all have special gifts that He's given us. We all have burdens, too, but how we face these things makes us who we are. She's been so brave facing her burdens and I've been so proud of her for it! The way she's faced them makes her gifts shine more brightly. I told her that I hoped she never tried to be normal, but would always let the gifts that God has given her shine through.


She's 8 years old now. I wonder how many more times we'll be having this conversation in the years to come. I still have to have this conversation with myself from time to time. Wouldn't it be nice if we could see ourselves the way God sees us?


Casey said...

:( This post makes me so sad. Bless her heart.

But she is far beyond normal! Just look at those dimples and that hair! She is just beautiful Wendy. :)

katdish said...

Praying that y'all get things regulated and she can enjoy a time of feeling "normul". Also that everyone can get some rest.

Normal is overrated. Not that I would know anything about being normal.

Billy Coffey said...

This broke my heart, Wendy.

I've had many of those very same conversations with my daughter, and I wish I could say I've done as well as you. I suppose the answer is that there is no answer, at least not on this side of heaven. I guess the point is to do as you've said -- see ourselves as God sees us, and know that He allows the bad things in life to hollow out our hearts just so they can hold more of His goodness.

Prayin' for you and your little one.

Tiffany S said...

Poor thing. Good thing she's got such a smart (and awesome) mama.

Unknown said...

Sending love, prayers, and good thoughts to you and your beauitful daugher

Robin Arnold said...

I've said it before, I'll say it again, that's the cutest girlie in the whole world. She seems so special so I'm not surprised she has special features. Wendy, you rock as a mommy. You are an inspiration. Please kiss the top of that red head for me. xx

artsyclay said...

What a darling she is! Saying a prayer for things to be easier this week. You are doing such a good job.

Love her notes! I remember a sign my youngest son posted on his bedroom door when he was about 6. "Do not disturb" with disturb misspelled 3 different ways, all crossed out, then "bother" at the bottom. :)

SarahBeeCreations said...

I love reading her notes. This one breaks my heart. Gentle hugs for both of you. What a wonderful mommy she has!

(My word verification is "hater" - ummm, what?)

Helen said...

Love you, Wendy. Love her. I hope she is doing better now.

Erin MacPherson said...

Ohhh... poor thing!! What a sad note! I'm sure it's so hard having diabetes and not truly understanding the whys and hows. I hope she starts feeling better!!! She's GORGEOUS, by the way? My two-year-old neice has thick, gorgeous, wavy, red hair like that and I hope she looks just like your daughter when she gets older.

Jasmine said...

Living with a lifelong condition is never easy, bless her heart!